death how sweet it is.

time always on edge I was inform I have to leave although I was expecting this I am in dough now sometime I feel like going away. perhaps this will end all my problems, I never did able to bare it. once I drank 7 Panadol but It did not kill me. wonted to hang my self but could not make my mind to do it. I do not know perhaps at the end it will end well.

if I can die tomorrow I will be the happiest man in this planet but god has other plans it seems I am not in a good physiological mood depression it is always with me now I foget everything even what people told me a minute a go. sometime I fogot even have I talk to them. I told some people that I'm seen them from a long time to find out that I have just talk to them an hour a go.

it is slowly killing me out of focus could not function well. I am sure I will end up in a mental hospital at least will get a treatment form one. it is hard to live but I have to some people depends on me.

I remember one when my first boss leaves he made a speech I always love that  at the end he told us that I am not sorry for anything I did if I did some thing it is for the best of this organization or to the best of that person. Wasantha Nimalasiri Sir you inspired me the most.