when it happen

shadows of the past has gone to ripples. I did told them that the rate of anger and hate will bring them war and so it is the war has been brought and there will be no one to stop it. I my friend am the observer. my purpose is to listen see and observe no more I will interfere with their elation ships since I was brought here to observe and amused at their ways. I am tired and so I shall rest no more they will use me for their amusement. you have taken 40 years of my life time I ask for justice and they put me to place that i will not fit. you will be remembered from this day for what you done for ruining my life and more. you have experimented me like a lab rat and taught that I will be contain in you contentment but they will know. they will know what you have done how you have make my entire life destroyed since you think you knows everything and you have rights to experiment on me for your research you will get an A+ but in the Eyes of the people you will fail you thought your self as god and make people think of you as that. but it will change they will know that you experiment on innocent and ruing their lives. this I promise since they will read this and they will deride your destiny

the test.

I found this girl I got to like her it seems she likes me too what I have to do I do not know I have to make a choice soon sooner than everything leave everything behind and leave or stat suffering I have no Idea what to do but I now I will meet her soon what should I tell her what I should ask her I do not know. it seems I have no choice my heart is telling me to take a decision I seem to have no choice of this matter my heart stops and perhaps it is for the best if it is the mistake I have to do perhaps I may need to do it. that is all

is it a mistake

I do not know What I should do now. I am tired of talking to a ghost. it have to end waiting for a reply that never come. I need to do this but am I doing the right thing I do not know I want to see her hold her hand an walk. talk with her spend time with her but it seems for ever it will not happen and I am out of pations. I need to move on as my life is going down so fast this have to be done now there is no other way. I may not doing the right thing but I can not help it this might be the biggest mistake I make in my life but I was doing so many of them now I do not care anymore, it is this or go back in to a a life of full of pain or become a monk or some thing like that I am failing in life and my hole life is becoming a mess. ether she have to come or I have to make my derision on this matter or I will not free it will be always a pain. I wish she come and talk hold my hand walk with me but it is not becoming a reality I am not in a mode for any more adjustment it will have to be done if it has to or I will never be free. I am shaking and I would not be able to hang on with a faith I may have to move on thing king  this is all a dream.
I have no courage to go on it have to stop and this have to be done even it was the biggest mistake I will ever do in my life. either she have to come or I have to move on. that is final now I could not hang on to this any more.

the life

form age 14 I have been praying to him. he never listen but finally he will answer me for one my body grows weak. I could not even walk as I use to. finally he will come for me. I will be at happiest then since my eternal slumber will come. so I will be happy. good bye every one it is good bye for all now I rest for a long time more than you ever will think. since my prayers will be answers and I will depart of the burden. soon very very soon

Is this for real?

I wonder is this for real, I mean I saw the police station and me going to it with one of over teachers Mr. Upul and saw the entire thing. and also I saw that two people telling me about there was a teacher who was the best in Sri Lanka working at school when they were studding. I went to my sisters house for her daughters birthday and I told her about a this stupa

and told her that I have seen the roof somewhere but 1 of march that I went to see kandy and with that the gagaladeniya and I saw it then the pervious was a dream I have seen this two pictures months before

 

how could this be possible some of the things that happen and said to me by people after few minutes I remember them as I have seen them in a dream. why is this happening to me  and I am the only one experiencing this.