the test.

I found this girl I got to like her it seems she likes me too what I have to do I do not know I have to make a choice soon sooner than everything leave everything behind and leave or stat suffering I have no Idea what to do but I now I will meet her soon what should I tell her what I should ask her I do not know. it seems I have no choice my heart is telling me to take a decision I seem to have no choice of this matter my heart stops and perhaps it is for the best if it is the mistake I have to do perhaps I may need to do it. that is all

is it a mistake

I do not know What I should do now. I am tired of talking to a ghost. it have to end waiting for a reply that never come. I need to do this but am I doing the right thing I do not know I want to see her hold her hand an walk. talk with her spend time with her but it seems for ever it will not happen and I am out of pations. I need to move on as my life is going down so fast this have to be done now there is no other way. I may not doing the right thing but I can not help it this might be the biggest mistake I make in my life but I was doing so many of them now I do not care anymore, it is this or go back in to a a life of full of pain or become a monk or some thing like that I am failing in life and my hole life is becoming a mess. ether she have to come or I have to make my derision on this matter or I will not free it will be always a pain. I wish she come and talk hold my hand walk with me but it is not becoming a reality I am not in a mode for any more adjustment it will have to be done if it has to or I will never be free. I am shaking and I would not be able to hang on with a faith I may have to move on thing king  this is all a dream.
I have no courage to go on it have to stop and this have to be done even it was the biggest mistake I will ever do in my life. either she have to come or I have to move on. that is final now I could not hang on to this any more.

the life

form age 14 I have been praying to him. he never listen but finally he will answer me for one my body grows weak. I could not even walk as I use to. finally he will come for me. I will be at happiest then since my eternal slumber will come. so I will be happy. good bye every one it is good bye for all now I rest for a long time more than you ever will think. since my prayers will be answers and I will depart of the burden. soon very very soon

Is this for real?

I wonder is this for real, I mean I saw the police station and me going to it with one of over teachers Mr. Upul and saw the entire thing. and also I saw that two people telling me about there was a teacher who was the best in Sri Lanka working at school when they were studding. I went to my sisters house for her daughters birthday and I told her about a this stupa

and told her that I have seen the roof somewhere but 1 of march that I went to see kandy and with that the gagaladeniya and I saw it then the pervious was a dream I have seen this two pictures months before

 

how could this be possible some of the things that happen and said to me by people after few minutes I remember them as I have seen them in a dream. why is this happening to me  and I am the only one experiencing this.