Thankyou god

thank you god for ending I waithed this for whole my life I begin to pray when I was 14 years old and still does seems you have forgoten me does end that hard. all I want is to leave everything behind and move to what ever lies ahead. death is feard by people who have a life but a puppet like me. it is the ultimet freedome I could get.

This is useless

it is useless to write to someone who do not listen I have no way of knowing this goes to her or not. if I could read minds and if I know what will happend there would be total diffrent out come I would have been married years ago and I would have childerns doing A/L but I have no way to know and I only guss and with out risponse I cant tell what is what. I try to explain but could not find out any thing. and no body understand try to suiside but did not work now I have no hope but to wait till the end even if it kills me.

NO MORE

I see no dreams no more seems they have abandond me not one in years perhaps they have done their purpose

The END

the last dream I remember is seen me with my 3 childrens but I was on a coma so as she something about saving the world or something and result in the coma our daughters standing beside us tring to revive us. I show them. it seems real. I have seen my eldest she had a long hair strated and two others were twin girls it is a unbeleable mormant