When I was born I was not good at study most of the time I got poor marks I’m not a good listener and Sinhala was the most challenging
subject for me creativity is not within me and some thing was very wrong. I
read questions but I could not make sense of them I knew the answers as I have
study but could not understand the question so could not answer them.
Science and mathematics has become one of my passion and I
was obsessed with it and kept on studding. Until I become very good at it. I was naturally
gifted with mathematics since logic I handle well than the social skills so my
easy writing remains very low and mathematics become so strong. Most of the
time I fails when it come to creativity or simple understandings you have to
tell me things precise or I never make since of them. With low social skills I
did not socialize well. Which give me time to study and with my passion to
science that is the only thing I learned it was the only thing I understand so
I study it well. I got high marks for science and mathematics and low on all
other subjects And social skills always make me got in to trouble since I was
unable to talk my way out of situations.
Spending time with myself the Einstein Newton story of them they become me role models could not socialites
and did not understand what normal people do I laugh at them naturally I could
not make sense of what they do
My friends were talking about girls and spending their time
with them but only thing I ever talk with them is science and they jest told I
was mad because it was not a normal thing to do but I could not understand because
I did not know the normal.
Got though degree too but my results remain poor due to my
lack of social skills I could not make sense of something’s since they are not precise.
And when going to job I fail since I have not any communication skills I could
not express myself. had hard time understating and making sense of what they really want me to tell. And find myself hard positions at interviews
Get though lot of treatment to change myself have to work so
hard to get in to this position got counselling and personality development since I could not make eye contact with people if some one ask me a question I always get excited could not answer since I did not know what they expect me to tell. it it goes every normal day today job was harder to me but things that require logic I handle such as programming and for next couple of years it will became my best friend. I study programming like crazy pushing my boundaries each day a new challenge a new hard problem I takale them one by one and Visual Basic was my language of choice. I was very good at "C" I even score "A" at university but when it come to industry it is not good for commercial use to develop things like HR or Inventory Control systems. so Visual Basic it will be. spend lot of times in forums download other peoples cording and take them apart to understand how they did it.
there is nothing like self study it is something that Einstein did after collage he refer many physics books and it was there that he gain his knowledge about theoretical physics. well this period let me understand theories even I did not at universities. network which I never thought I understand. I was poor in my knowledge at SLIIT. I could not make sense of them and I failed again and again but never the less I had a chance to handle servers and in a position of server administration and so I learn and all that theories I never understand began to make sense I never were good at it but I was able to manage the servers.
it is ware I met my friend pamu who teach me something important not knowledge but how to gain it he is the one who teach me how to use internet how to search for answers how to learn what you do not know and it helped me lot so I learn using the latest tools the internet and Youtube become the best tool since it gives me audio and visual representations.
I was in to studies like no one and it is part of me it is like eating and sleeping I could not know how I live without it.
